Maybe things don’t work the way you want them to or prayers go unanswered, these are all God’s ways of saving you. Maybe the things you worried about would not give you peace or happiness or comfort. Maybe all the things that broke you were actually his and he believed that your heart can betray you sometimes and your plans sometimes fail and that’s okay.
It’s okay to want something so desperately that you realize it wasn’t good enough for you. It’s okay to admit that the things you were fighting for didn’t fight mercilessly because maybe this is God’s way of teaching you how to trust him, that if you let go, if you trust in his timing, if you don’t try to rush things all the time, eventually they will fall into place.
Maybe the people you get close to when you know they are wrong are just teaching you the importance of letting go, of getting away from the thing you want the most in order to get something better. Maybe they teach you that trials don’t last forever satisfactorythat some temptations look good from a distance but leave you feeling it is empty the closer you get. Maybe your heart moved to the wrong people to find your way back to God or back to yourself. Maybe God wants your journey to be about you right now and not about love and that’s why He wants your heart to be His you or to teach you how to endure your heart until it finds what it really deserves.
Maybe God’s way of saving you seems to be failing. Maybe God’s way of protecting you feels like you are putting yourself in danger and maybe every time you ask for peace, you find yourself going into battle but coming out alive, maybe injured or tired or exhausted. Maybe you are lost or defeated but you come out alive and that means you still have to be here to continue to fight against anything that prevents you from growing, whatever you are not willing to let go of and whatever keeps you from finding your truth or your calling or your healing.
Maybe things don’t get easier because you have to learn some lessons the hard way to protect yourself from further damage. Maybe some things are needed smash it you to find the inner strength to get rid of the things that hurt you no matter how hard you worked for them or how much you wanted them or needed them. Maybe people need to disappoint you or scare you so that you can continue to find love and validation within yourself. So you can be your home instead of the home you made for these people inside your heart to leave. Maybe everyone who left was teaching you how to love being alone so you can stop to search so that someone else can finish it.
Maybe everything is going the way it should be and God is trying to teach you to stop holding on so tightly to the beautiful picture in your head of how things should be and trust Him to paint a wonderful picture instead. Trust him to change the image inside your head to a the art of art.
