In this deep thinking, Rania Naim it takes place in a quiet transition where devotion replaces control and God moves from a supportive role to the Author of the story. In Finding God Everyday, Rebecca Simon it similarly invites readers to love, trust, and depend on God even in times of uncertainty.
I am learning to trust him instead of trying to change what he wrote for me. I understand that it is my story but he is the director. He is the one who makes everything come together. He is the one who makes everything make sense because he participates in every aspect of it.
He pays attention to the details that I remember. He knows everyone’s role in my life and knows when and how to place them. He is able to arrange the scenes in the right way at the right pace without me trying too hard to get to the end, changing the order of the scenes or interrupting everything. totality of the story.
I am learning to trust him because he is faithful. He catches me when I fall. He keeps the day. He keeps the storms from destroying me – and that’s something I can’t do. That is something no one else can do.
I’m learning to trust him because he’s still shaping me, he’s still working for me as a person, he’s still trying to see me on my own to test me. He tests how loyal, strong and patient I am. He tests how much I can take and whether it will push me or bring me closer. He tests my ability to trust and depend on him.
He’s checking me out because he knows I’m not there. I’m still questioning things in my life. I still cry about my future. I still look at him and ask why. I’m still angry with him telling him that I’ve had enough and he’s treating me badly.
I’m still standing selfishness. I still can’t love him unconditionally. I’m still learning how to give him the love I’m asking him to give me. I’m still learning to love him even if he doesn’t answer my prayer.
I may not understand him all the time but maybe I don’t have to understand him. Maybe we should look at God the way we want our dream partner to look at us. Love him when we don’t understand him. Love him when it’s difficult. Love him when he doesn’t always give us our desires and just love him. Love him more than anyone else. Love him more than us. Love him more than himself the world.
And maybe it’s the way you trust God, when you give him your world and your heart, when you tell him all your secrets, when you talk to him before you talk to anyone else because maybe that’s all he wants. You. Your love. Your heart.
And maybe then, we will understand him. Maybe we just need to hear him first. Maybe we just need to open our hearts and let him in. Maybe loving God is the real love that we all want but we have been looking for it in people that’s why we don’t trust love. Maybe if we trust God, we will never really face another tragedy. Maybe you are He heals we.
